My bearded prince.
The most pleasant surprise.
An unplanned affair (as if loving ever is).
Naturally I would have and I do fear the distance between me and my lover. But these past two days, this past day, he has been all that has been on my mind. His smile, the awkward (and really douchy at times) jokes he makes, his honesty, his warmth.
I love that man. And it's so odd it's a love I can't say I've ever experienced before.
With Carlos, it was certain, strong,and had a yearning.
Wit Henry it was painful yet purposeful.
But with Adam, there's a distinction. Adam is real.
With Adam it's simple, playful, intentional, and growing.
Never in my life has anyone inspired me to be something (I'm tearing up), I'm not. But with, for, and because of Adam I am yearning to be a better person. One for him.
I love him.
I love his voice. I love his feet (which is SERIOUSLY saying something). I love his eyes.
I love the way he look annoyed when he's driving lol. Or the way he rubs his eyes to hide what he feel (though I kinda wish he didn't. I wish he's allow himself to be vulnerable with me). I wonder so much about him. I wonder about his thoughts, his past, his hopes. He's so simple but he only leaves me wanting to know more and more. I want to be his. I want to know him and love him more and more. He's my Adam. And I am forever grateful to have met him. I could write a novel on it. I've never met someone so perfect. So unexpected. I love him. And I want to love him and make him proud forever. I can't explain it. He's so on my mind. I expect to be writing alot more about him. Almost only about him.
